JOURNEY

To the end of the road,  

Wanting to achieve.

Going further,

Sacrificing all.

Unhappy,

Walking blindly.

Stepping on hard things,

Depressed,

 Still move on.

Tired, i sit,

Thinking again.

Priority is a hurdle.

Goodbye note for my ship JOONGBO

I'm over being a JOONGBOer... T_T

The news about kim hyun joong abusing n hurting his girlfriend is more than i could accept.

How could he possibly hurt someone that he considers his love one?!!! I just cannot accept the fact that he is that kind of guy.

One thing for sure, i'll never condone abusive behaviour especially towards women. NEVER!!!

Im sure hwangbo unnie deserves someone better than him.

Even though im soooo heart broken listening to the news, i just cannot accept the fact that im shipping hwangbo with someone like hyun joong. N not anymore... 

Am i gonna delete all the memories that i have for the past 6 years? 

I wont cuz that r my guilty pleasures of wanting to see n have beautiful relationship.

So, i will keep all the memories n cheerish all the thing i have for joongbo couple. 

I hope hwangbo unnie will find someone that can really take care n love her forever. I also hope hyun joong will learn a valuable lesson from all of these n stop hurting the person that u love. 

Goodbye JoongBo~

A Moment to Realise

A moment to realise that you are not alone,

is a moment you'll realise you are alone.

A moment to realise life must go on,

is a moment you'll realise there's hurdle up in front.

A moment to realise there's no hustle,

is a moment you'll realise you are in trouble.

A moment to realise you are you,

is a moment you will know you are TRUE....

by,

wadhihah

HOLIDAY vs WORKI-DAY

Assalamualaikum... hello, hi and welcome to school holiday!!!!
yes, it's this time again of the year where everyone is waiting for. time to have fun, travel, rest, relax and chill.
but it's not really relevant for me this year. last year, i was preoccupied with my father's illness and honest to God i don't think it's a burdened. i love my abah so much and pray every single day for him.

This is year, is a different story. i have tons of work to do for this holiday. for those who didn't know, Malaysian teachers nowadays are burdened with lots, and lots of workload that are sometimes irrelevant. from PBS to VLE-Frog, the list never ends. but like any other civil servant i MUST do what i am asked to.

so, HOLIDAY? noooooooo....
i should change it to WORKI-DAY

Here are some of the things i have to do for this WORKI-DAY

• look after SPM kids at the hostel - and being BORED
• finishing my e-prestasi and "what not" - duhhhhhh
• marking SPM papers - 400 - 500 scripts, come to mama!
• VLE-Frog????? still no idea
• RPT 2014

however.... i ACCEPT all. it's ok. as long as i can hold on, i'll do them all.
i just have to show people that have negative thoughts on teaching profession and believing that being teachers are easy how professional a teacher can be.

~Ramadhan~

Assalamualaikum,
now come again the month where every Muslim in the world has been waiting. it's RAMADHAN. it is such a blessing month and all Heaven's gates are opened throughout the whole month.
just like other Muslims, i too am very happy this month. this Ramadhan is a very special one as this is the first Ramadhan without Abah. but strangely enough, i dont feel like Abah is not around. the memories of him being around the house are so vivid that i can almost hear his voice. SubhanAllah....
That's is why i dont feel very sad.... (I love you Abah...)

Salam Ramadhan from my family and I.... ^^

here's a song from Maher Zain.... Ramadhan

Closet Otaku~ Kimi Ni Tokode

Assalamualaikum, hello, hi!
Long time no post..... huuuuu~
okay,
last time i shared about my fav WGM couples, my fa dramas n movies...
n for this round, i would like to share my favourite MANGA
yes, "manga" or Japanese comics are reading materials that i love n enjoy...
and i can even call my self an otaku (if not 100%, 1/3% maybe.... ^^) cuz i've read a lot of mangas on the internet.

so, im not here to ramble about being an otaku, but i would like to share my NO.1 most fav manga of all time and nooooo.... it's not NARUTO (but my brothers are all into Naruto)
why? because as i mentioned thousand times, i am more into romance+comedy and fighting is not on the list (im a girl.... hello~).
and, the manga is.................. KIMI NI TOKODE (or in English, Reaching You/From Me to You)

The story is about Sawako Kuronuma, called Sadako by her classmates for her resemblance to the character 'Sadako', from The Ring, has always been feared and misunderstood because of her appearance. There are rumors that Sawako can see ghosts and curse people. But when her idol, popular boy Kazehaya, begins talking with her, everything changes. She finds herself in a new world, trying to make friends and talking to different people and she can't thank Kazehaya enough for giving her these opportunities.

Slowly, but surely, a sweet love is blossoming between the two as they will overtake any circumstance or clear obstacles in their way. *summary taken from http://www.mangatraders.com

It is an interesting story and i fell in love the moment i read the first chapter. it has all, comedy, friendship, a little bit of horror and obviously romance.

For those who would like to see the manga but tooo lazy to open the manga n read,the manga actually has been adapted to an anime with the same title.


You can read this manga at various manga sites for example:

• www.mangareader.net/‎
• beta.mangafox.com/‎
• www.manga2u.me/‎
• www.mangatraders.com/‎

So, if you r interested, go and read the manga and welcome to fan club "Kimi Ni Tokode"
*next time, i will try to list 10 mangas that i like.... be sure to wait! ^_^

Pampered Grandchild??

Doting. it's normal for grandparents to dote on their grandchild, but is it normal for grandparents to have favorites among their grandchild?
most people would say yes. grandparents are human after all.
as a matter of fact, i'm one of the 'exception' that got the special treatment. and i'm telling you it's not all that "candy sweet like feeling" that everyone think it would be. NO,NO,NO...
why? now here are some (i repeat SOME) of the reasons that being pampered by grandparents are su***

• you are always mistreated by your siblings cuz they think you are far lucky to be doted by grandma n granda. (hey, u can't have this! go n ask granny to get it for you!)
•  yes you r given many gifts n money but at the end of the day, all that are investments to keep you on their side (dear, remember how i've taken care of u when u were a baby? if so, please marry this chap that i know because i know he can make you happy) What?!!!!
• your siblings will get jealous of you and u r left stuck in the middle. (who would you choose? both r important for you. they r family after all!)

And the most important thing is that We (the pampered grandchild) are do not ask for this extra attention from grandparents. it just happen!!!

in conclusion, CUT US SOME SLACK! we need some space to breath......

IN THE MIDST OF WORKLOADS....

hi, hello, Assalamualaikum...
Yes its me again. 'So long no see'... hehe
As usual, I have been living my life n blog seem to be fr out of reach.
Especially dis year. I hav had a tough year dis year but let save the sory for another time.
Actually I am in the middle of doing extra work during my "supposedly" holiday time n I'm da*, tired..... huhu.
So, to kill some times n to avoid sleeping n my cozy bed, hould distract myself with anything.
Then, my blog cross my mind!
Dats why here writing n sory if my post is so boring n a waste of time cuz 4 me it is my way of resting my mind from THOSE CRAZY WOrKLOAD I ve been doing...
Hehe...
Dats all 4 now, heading straight 4 my work n hoping could fnish it on time.... InsyaAllah....

so soon...

Assalamualaikum....
one question comes to my mind right now... "have u ever lost someone u love?"
I have and im sure many people all around the world have faced the same thing just like i did.
at first i feel empty, lost and very,very sad... but as i take time to think and 'muhasabah myself' i can finally calm myself and start seeing things in a whole new light and perspective.

• This is all Allah's will and Allah's will is always the best
• I dont lost my father, because im her daughter and he is with me... always
• I know, my father is now in a better place

still, the feeling of losing him is suffocating... that's why i dedicate this song to my father. i miss u abah, and i will always pray for u...  my doas are for u.....

Eid Mubarak!!!

i know... it's been a 'very long' while since i post something.... hehehe (yup, same reason why, busry,busy,busy and a big fat LAZY!!)

ok, enough rambling...
before i forget, let me wish everyone Happy Eid Mubarak!!!
after a month of fasting, now iqTm`$LiۯQ@`܊2ate the victory and to appreciate the wonder ALLAH have given to us.
usually Aidilfitri is my fav month of the year.... but this year seem different.
one thing is because our family did not celebrate Raya at our village but the other thing is that this year's Ramadhan makes me feel calm and happy. so, i feel reluctant to leave Ramadhan.

but still, Aidilfitri is a month of happiness n i hope everyone can enjoy the festivity!

the PASSION...

ok,sitting in the middle of the class thinking "what the hell doing here" makes me think of PASSION....
So here goes...

P: painful pleasure

A: arguably my cup of caramel macchiato

S: sin, sinner, sinnest, its up to u

S: sometimes it dies without u realise

I: inner self is affected n coloured

O: on the other side of my heart

N: nothing can compare when it spreads its wing

and... my passion (at the moment) is teaching n i hope the passion last FOREVER......

Terukir Di Bintang.... by Yuna

Yuna, a gem from Malaysia dat i'm proud of. (im sure im not her only fans)
Terukir di Bintang, "Crafted on the stars...." (direct translation ok! hehe)
this song is a nice song n i've become addicted to the song, lyric and her voice...

when i hear this song, i always think of my past love and my present life...
i felt like im up on a cloud looking down at myself walking unsure of what will become of me. (dun understand what im saying? me too... i sometimes dun even know what im saying!)

what im trying to say is that I LIKE THIS SONG n I would like everyone to enjoy it too...
so, here goes!

Here is the lyric -->

Jika engkau minta intan permata
Tak mungkin ku mampu
Tapi sayangkan ku capai bintang
Dari langit untukmu

Jika engkau minta satu dunia
Akan aku coba
Ku hanya mampu jadi milikmu
Pastikan kau bahagia

Hati ini bukan milik ku lagi
Seribu tahun pun akan ku nanti
Kan kamu

Sayangku jangan kau persoalkan
Siapa dihatiku
Terukir di bintang
Tak mungkin hilang cintaku padamu

Hati ini bukan milik ku lagi
Seribu tahun pun akan ku nanti
Kan kamu

Sayangku jangan kau persoalkan
Siapa dihatiku
Terukir di bintang
Tak mungkin hilang cintaku padamu

Sayangku jangan kau persoalkan
Siapa dihatiku
Terukir di bintang
Tak mungkin hilang cintaku padamu

Terukir di bintang
Tak mungkin hilang cintaku padamu

I'm at My LIMIT

huhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~
this is what i want to do all day for the past few weeks..
im so stressed out by all the work i've been getting nowadays!!!
to make thing worst, i cant express it to anyone. T.T
so.... this is what i should do. JUST SAY WHAT I WANT TO SAY HERE....
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!
iuyybcoeuoiu!@#$%^&*()(*&^%$#@!#$%^&*()_)(*&^%$#@#$%^&*()_)(*&^%$#@#$%^&*()_)(*&^%$*&^%$#@#$%^&*()(*&^%$#@#$%^&*()_)(*&^%$#$%^&*()_+_)(*&^%$#@@#$%^&*~~!!!!!

(me, being crazy.... now im fine, and ready for more WORKLOAD)

what i've done for the past 3 months~

ok.. i must admit dat im d**m lazy to update my blog...
as usual i blame my busy schedule (as if im dat busy.. :p) for being so packed this past few months.
so... in order not making my blog as an "up-to-dead" blog i will tell u wat i've done this past few months. (actually i've got nothing new to share nowadays~ hehehe)

• teaching my form 3,4 and 5 students (obviously)
• accepted being a warden and being occupied since... (very tiring when every single minute there's student knocking on my fu**ing door) sigh~
• doing post mortem for PMR & SPM 2011 (trust me, not a happy one...)
• doing extra classes with my 'so, they think they are clever than me' students (just my daily dose of headache)
• last but not least, doing my super duper dull routine n i've forgotten about this blog... (the most 'i swear to God' honest reason)

Romantic Comedy Movies anyone?

^_______^
ok, 1st i must admit that im not really into movies so much so that i dont even know (care would be the actual word) what is the latest movie now.
but lately, i have a change of heart. sometimes MOVIES are good n it is short enough not to make me wait every single week to see the continuation of a drama (even though that hasnt change my obsession with dramas... hehe)
so... what type of movies should i dig in? it would be ROMANTIC COMEDY (obvious what? :p)
why romantic comedy? just make some wild guesses...
after some surfing on the internet n spending countless times watching the movies, i would like to share:

10 romantic comedy movies (some r just romantic though) i would recommend everyone should watch.

1. The Proposal 2009
2. A Little Thing Called Love 2010 (Thai movie)
3. Never Been Kissed 1999
4. Flipped 2010
5. Ever After: A Cinderella Story 1998
6. Beastly 2011
7. Chasing Liberty 2004
8. Life As We Know It 2011
9. Miss Congeniality 2000
10. What Happens In Vegas 2008

actually there are so, so many romantic comedy movies to choose from n some of u would not think that the 10 movies i choose r  the best but there r for me! enjoy watching!

My mission for the hols

truthfully im quite bored during holidays n most of the time im keeping myself warm under my blankie n go on a journey i wont tell u today. (hehe :p)
but as i am a teacher now, i feel some obligation to do some improvement in my teaching. N for the first time ever, i've got the guts to pull myself out from my bed n do some school work!! (sometimes i want to kick my butt for being overly occupied with teaching)
hehehe~
even if im not that confident do to this, i had a head start this morning n (even i cannot believe it myself) i read some articles from my study years n they inspired me to do some improvement in my teaching.
so, i write down some of the ideas in my handy book for reference next year.
after this morning, i also got an idea to create a module for my form 3 students on the poems n the novel that they r going to do next year for their PMR.
next year's PMR format is going to change n the students are going to be asked some structured questions (open-ended) on poems that they have learned throughout 3 years studying in lower secondary form. potato people is going to be replaced with "AROUND THE WORLD IN 80 DAYS" by Jules Vern.
so that's it. im going to try to create a module for my students next year. im not quite sure whether the module is going to finish or not but at least i hav something to keep me busy during the holidays.... ^^

Lee Seung Gi oh my Lee Seung Gi....

hehehe~
my fav artist in whole korea... LEE SEUNG GI!!!! (melting)
even though this is also a late news, he has come out with new album and his hit song is "You're My Friend" or in korean language "Chinggu Janna".
it's a melo about a person loving his own best friend and always stays next to her. (mostly about unrequited love for the best friend)
so... here's the vid. ENJOY n support LEE SEUNG GI!!
p/s - JOONGBO (Hwangbo n Kim Hyun Joong are still my fav but i want to marry Seunggi!!! hehe *blush*

what book means to me...

B - Be able to see what i've never imagine

O - OMG it takes me everywhere!

O- Obviously my closest mate

K - Knowledge? nope. a keeper more i like it... ^^

before u sleep?

1. Brush ur teeth

2. wash ur face

3. take wuduk'

4. wash ur feet

5. say ur pray n 'muhasabah diri'

6. SLEEP soundly + good dreams ^^

i lost a battle

i applied for EGTukar n sadly to announce that i failed to transfer school.
when i first receive the news that my application is denied, i cried so badly (trust me... i look so bad crying) to make thing worsts, my students saw me like that. such an EMBARRASSMENT!
but my students were very supportive n they tried to comfort me. even my housemate was there comforting me. one thing i like about that day was that i know that my students still want me to be their teacher. at least i know that i've done something good for them to continuously want me as their teacher... (i'm very touched) 
sooo....
next year is another year at M******. and i will fight this battle again next year until the battle is won.